Let Me Clear My Throat (a long and rambly somewhat rant)
December 10, 2004

(It's 2 am and therefore the following may or may not be coherent)

I probably should have said what I'm about to say eleven and a half months ago, but whatever; call me an optimist. I'm an optimist because whatever I was smoking (figuratively) when I started this weblog must have led me to believe that the vast majority of people on the world wide web had the capacity and at least a shred of decency that allows them to critically think and exchange the political label sieve for oh I dunno, a brain. I've been down from my "wishful high" for quite some time now and can say with striking clarity that people are very disappointing.

This is by no means a new revelation. I mean, a simple flip through the newspaper and you're bound to get disappointed at least 16-20 times. In fact, while I'm on the subject, my own parents disappoint me on the regular, but probably not half as much as I disappoint them so let us all commiserate in the fact that disappointment is inevitable.

That said;

There are certain individuals I've encountered in my almost year-long journey on the internet that I'm quite sick of. These two-celled brain individuals are comfortable throwing out all reason and logic for the sake of political label slinging. And while I'm sure all of us would love to re-live kindergarten where snacks and recess abound, the "I'm going to disagree with everything you say quite simply because you're a '[insert opposing political label]' and I don't like you'" type of thinking is juvenile and petty. Damned if you do/damned if you don't standards don't really bode well with me. Dealing with these type of individuals is a waste of precious energy.

I'm not doing it anymore.

Then there are other individuals who refuse to engage anyone on a human or ideological level and instead cop-out (yeah I said it) by using epithets that are so played out and tired, they've completely lost their potency. "Uncle Tom", "Coon", these are all names believe it or not, I've never been called until I went online. And although I've always been vocal about my perspective, my political disagreements with other black people never went "there" because quite frankly, in the flesh, people know me better than that. Thankfully, some people online (see item #4) can also see through the facade.

Really folks, if we're going to play the role of grand arbiters of race authenticity here, let's at least get original. I mean, Uncle Tom is so Clarence Thomas/Anita Hill trial passe. I say "Uncle Tom" the character needs to be de-constructed anyhow. I think we're grossly misappropriating the term. I'll add that topic to the docket.

People wonder why I'm irritated by the false political labels we worship and adore. I'll tell you why. Because our lovely labels are among the many things that hinder people from being able to engage each other beyond surface political talk. The buck usually stops at which candidate you voted for or how you feel on a given issue. I'm sorry, but that type of dialogue is boring and although there is little from Liberal side of things that interests me personally, I have no desire to dwell in the conservative echo chamber. This here ditty on the web is intended to be read by all types of people.

Maybe us black conservatives just have a higher tolerance for opposition. After all, we'd have no contact with family members if we didn't.

The "title wave" allows people to perpetuate facades. When someone doesn't like an idea, instead of addressing the idea, they can get away with saying "Republicans make me sick" and talk about how ugly I am or break out the ad hominems in rapid-fire. It's a defense mechanism for real dialogue and it smells. Smelly people will be ignored by me.

I'm not exactly sure what type of special Barry Bonds-type steroids certain internet dwellers take to puff themselves up and become so high and mighty on the internet, but it doesn't impress me. There is often very little substance to the umpteen million accusations that get thrown at black non-democrats. You should see some of the high-minded emails I get. When people start acting indignant and making up stuff, I simply reply, "Do emails like this make you feel better about yourself?" That's usually the last I hear of the purveyors of internet hubris.

What really cracks me up are the people (especially the spawn of the Tupac Shakur cult), who love to email me and drop haughty comments to suggest in the most patronizing fashion that there is some sort of pay-off or paycheck being earned by those blacks that don't espouse the typical liberal viewpoint. And yes, some of "us" are earning a paycheck (unfortunately, not this one), but so are liberals and so is my hair stylist, and so is the tripped-out Haitian man three blocks from my office that stands out on the street eight hours a day, yelling about the police being the devil. So what exactly is the point? Last I checked, Al Sharpton was the one collecting $86,715 in "travel and consulting fees" from the Democratic National Committee to spread Kerry-love and play church in the pulpit. But hey, I'm not mad at him for collecting his paycheck, so ease on up offa me.

As it stands, it costs me more time and money to publish my ideas than it profits me and God knows that I did not sign up for this gig with the hopes of becoming a mouthpiece for "the Right". In fact, that's what I feared the most because as I'm sure you've seen, I don't like it when people think they have me "figured out". I don't have time for the garbage that requires me to worry about if what I'm going to say is going to offend [insert socialized group of people], including conservatives. If God's pleased with me then that's all that matters.

"Blogging" is by nature, highly narcissistic, so thank you for indulging me for a moment. I just had to get this on record for the future. I must be myself and if "being me" offends or provokes or numbs or bores to tears, well then by golly, I did my job.

P.S. Don't go trying to figure out which post/comments sparked this throat-clearing rant. There isn't one. It's the build up and compilation of much frustration with the online world.

Posted by Ambra at December 10, 2004 1:53 AM in Blogging
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Bravo!

Right on Ambra! i wish I was 10% as articulate as you are getting your thoughts across.

The online hood is rough. It's a jungle (not-so-clever narcissistic plug ;-) out there. If you stick a lovely Ambi'd neck out, vampires'll look to bite it. But you're steely enough to take on all comers. Nothing shall deter you from your mission.

The real tradgedy would be if any of these leftside militants close you off to seeing potential truths.

keep on keeping on; intelligence always wins in the end; that may be the lance you're looking for as part of the free lance writer; the pen is always mightier than the sword

Memer, Boy you just kill me every time! Potential truths coming from the left. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

From personal experience, I can tell you that any time you go against what your ethnic group thinks you should be, you're going to get shafted.

... or rightside militants ... ;-)

Ambra,

You know us white conservatives love ya.

mj,
Among the white upper middle class this season, it is the "in" thing in the blue states (I live in one--CA) to have a black "friend."..LOL

I live in a blue state, and the UMC I've met don't have the same attitude as those in CA.

That's pretty coherent for 2am. :-) You just can't reason with some people. I've been through the net "flame wars" and "troll" attacks since '97. I have just about given up on the whole idea of civil discussion of religion and politics on the net. People say things to each other on the net that wouldn't dare say face to face (at least I hope they wouldn't). Keep up the "fight" Ambra. We Republicans still love ya. ;-)

We may not see eye to eye on everything (though, from what I've read, we do on a few points), it makes me NUTS to read comments that attack you as an "uncle tom." (Some of the things these people were saying were genuinely outrageous, hurtful and just wrong.) Especially, sadly, when that point is the only one that comes clearly through the often poorly written flame/troll thing. Argh. Anyway. You're clearly an intelligent woman, and as much as I WISH you were more "liberal" in your views, I respect your right to have and intelligently share your opininions in your personal blog. You seem to hold up pretty well under the criticisms, though :)

You have just =GOT= to read "Propaganda" by Jacques Ellul! He makes the same point--people so much crave to be "in the know" on every detail of financial policy, foreign affairs, agricultural subsidies, etc. etc. etc. that they are more than willing to swallow pre-digested opinions they can regurgitate to appear thoughtful, and political parties are so willing to supply these pre-digested opinions (complete with a self-validating peer group of similarly propagandized people) in exchange for a vote every now and again, that yes indeed, most people have completely stopped thinking things through on an issue-by-issue basis.

Glad to know there are folks who see eye to eye with me on this sickness.

Fed, I will look into the book you recommended. I need good reading for my next trip.

Aw man, you missed your chance!
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